Re: Thoughts for you and for others
Submitted by Ben on June 10 1999 at 20:31:31
In reply to Thoughts for you and for others Submitted by Adam TBK on June 09 1999 at 14:05:37
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Hi Adam - We should definately get together. Now that I think about it, I do remember you mentioning something about religion in your past relationship. I would be willing to bet that it was the same church....just a hunch. Many people do join my church for the social aspects and, you are right, there is incredible access to boys in an almost family-like environment. Certainly this is what drew me to the church. As it so happened though, I found God along the way and before I knew it, I truly believed in God....and Jesus. What has followed has been the most bizarre untwisting of my former life, something which I would never have believed is possible. While the surrounding of great boys certainly makes staying in the church more fun and palatable when times get tough, my convictions are quite strong. Furthermore, the church teaches children that their sexuality is a wonderful gift from God but one that was intended for when they get married. It is highly unlikely that a boy would even think to pursue a sexual relationship....especially with a man. On the other hand, boylove is seldom mentioned in the bible so who knows what God thinks about it. I do not believe, however, that every sexual whim of a child (or adult) needs to be fulfilled. For me, the family like atmosphere of the church gives me an easy alternative to my old habits. Whenever I feel like surfing the net for boy pics, I remind myself of the beautiful twins that God put into my life for me to truly love. I would much rather hug them or play with them then to lust after random street boys. It is a question of filling temporary desires with temporary fulfillment, or of filling one's real needs for God and love with the very same. I'm dying to chat in person. I'll email you. You are not alone. 
Ben |