Hi ABO - I guess I am the same Ben that you remember from before. I've been part of the BC community for quite a long time though I no longer participate in boychat. Alot has changed in my life over the past six months including a rather odd course of events which led to my coming to Christ (as a fundamentalist, btw). I'm sorry to hear that your spirituality has been waning. The bible talks about the need for spiritual food, some of which comes from reading the bible, from going to church, from supporting other brothers (and sisters) and living your life in a Godly way. These are things which can help to bring you back to God. Jesus died on the cross for YOU....it would be a shame for you to get no more out of that than an occasional visit to church. Perhaps you can learn some from your YF. Eleven is a great age, btw and I'm glad to know that he is now fully in your care! You are not alone. Ben |