Re: My first post here.
Submitted by BLues on October 13 1999 at 15:17:38
In reply to Re: My first post here. Submitted by KILROY on October 13 1999 at 07:56:44
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>Hello This is my first post here too. I feel the exact way you do. don't feel sorry for what you feel. my input is that if it is mutual love it should be so. I struggled with the same issues you have. Unfortunatly the world does not feel the same as boylovers.< Thanks for the feedback KILROY. If the love is mutual than I guess we would then only have to decide if the boy is mature enough to make decisions like that for himself or if he his rather just going along with it to please his older friend. I know for me I dont think I could ever be with a boy if I thought it was the latter. Another sad and perhaps the most confusing thing about loving boys is that even if we did find one that we deemed capable of handling it and wanting to be involved to benefit himself our attraction would probably die out within a few years anyway. I trip on that all the time. Sometimes I cry about it. When I see two people in love, say a man and woman, they have the possibility of growing old together, staying together until the end. I would like to think that just the memories I had stored up about us together when he was younger would be enough to keep the attraction going long after he grew body hair:) but I dont know. It seems cruel on the boylovers part to ditch his friend in favor of a younger one. You know I bet boylovers probably have the highest percentage of deppressives of all people. I dunno. I dont want to depress you or anything but sometimes I think about what it will be like for me when Im old. Pretty lonely Im sure. Im in a relationship now with a man older than me. Hes 30, Im 27. All things considered I must say its working well for me. Im open with him about my attractions and he tries to understand it. No, its not what I ideally want and we both know that but its nice to have someone. I guess maybe Im lucky because he gives me my time alone to take care of those feelings... I sure wish I had met him about 20 years ago though! He remembers well enough to tell me that without a doubt he would have been ready for a relationship with me. Hes great though. He even points out cuties for me! :)) Write more wont ya? BLues |