Not so quite blessed but... But... Um...
Submitted by KPK on December 12 1999 at 09:06:26
In reply to Wow Submitted by Brian on December 12 1999 at 00:18:02
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Dear Brian, I used to be a lot better off by then some years ago, and I was a former Baptist church's Sunday School teacher for the deaf until a pastor there had chased me away 10 yrs ago because he didn't want any gays in his absurd church at all, and since then... I just became being an "Paul of Damascus" in an reverse to all of those "ichabod christians" and their churches out of my anger at them for what they do with me during 1980's. For 9 yrs, I have been going downhill spiritually. Not to mention my serious drinking and anger problems, I am just a... Really lousy (expletive) person, believe me. Definitely no saint at all, I did some terrible things to other years ago, that I would rather not to say about at all. All of that stuff that I really do know was from many, many years ago and it's really remarkable that I can still remember all of them since then despite what a terrible mess I am right now today. I still have a same 20 yrs old KJV Bible since I was a much brighter new christian boy by then, and it's what had kept me to remember them all... I just remember them and I just tell like it is like a permanment record inside of my head while I am now a walking messy pile as today. It just gotten being so bad that I really wanted to go home and just couldn't wait for Rapture to happen right away... Maybe someday, when I recover myself and become being much better, not only physically but spiritually as well also. Perhaps, I'll go back to teaching those deaf kids and adults with His Love... Better somewhere else, I don't know... Only God know where He need me the most for some place... I just have to go and stay being offline just for a few weeks for some good reasons. You should see my post at the top that will explain everything. In His name, KPK |