Re: Struggling with faith.
Submitted by DJ Spike on December 28 1999 at 05:50:45
In reply to Re: Struggling with faith. Submitted by OpenEars1 on December 27 1999 at 22:39:01
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Hi OpenEars, Thanks for taking your time to respond to my post and telling me some words of wisdom. Thats pretty neat the you are a Jew. I haven't really talked with a true Jewish person before, that I know of anyway. I'm not really sure of what your beliefs are but I'll have to look into it more. Does your faith believe everything in the bible? Not adding or taking away of anything? I know I have been going to Church with my parents a long time ago and then I went to another church for the youth. I have stopped going becuase I didn't feel right. As for as the attitudes of people go. It really bugged me when I could see the 'fake' personalities or 'judgemental' attitudes in some people. Especially when people don't practice what they preach. I just didn't feel accepted. I didn't feel they were living a truly spiritual lifestyle. Don't get me wrong, maybe some people there were TRUE believers. But still I felt unconfortable. Maybe because at that time I was feeling guilty about my BL lifestyle. I didn't know the meaning of 'BoyLover' but I know I had feelings for younger people and enjoyed their company more than people my own age. I guess you can say I turned my back on God, which I did. But not really in a hateful way. I just felt that if I couldn't be myself and live a 'BL' lifestyle as a Christian Then I should not waste anymore time being a Believer. But now since I have found this Christian Boylove Forum, maybe I can feel more at home and begin to build my relationship with God. I do agree with you. We are not perfect beings and are bound by the natural desires of lust. I know I have felt lust before many times. Especially during the lonely times. Desiring someone to 'make love' with. I have reconized it and now I have self-control. I understand what true love is. I believe 'sex' is special and is an expression of love. It should be somthing that is built on the foundation of TRUE friendship and honesty but not somthing that you look forward to. The same goes with a relationship with a boy. Not all BoyLovers, have a sexual relationship. And alot of times it is not neccesary. Just the friendship and love in itself is a beautiful experience. My love for children is so strong that I often write poetry. I feel joy and happiness in my soul just by being with them. I want to share, and give them the best in life. I want to feel what they feel, run and laugh with them, and show my affections of true love. Anyway, I hope I didn't carry this on to long...but I just wanted you to understand where I am coming from. I really appreciate your comments though. I look forward to seeing another post from you!:) From your bro in Christ, DJ Spike or Rick |