My Secret Obsession
Submitted by Joe on February 27 2000 at 02:48:25
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I am a property manager for the Sigma Phi Epsilon fraternity at MIT. I moved in during the summer of 1998 because I thought it would satiate my need to be around young men. Unfortunately, what I thought could be a containable urge turned into an unleashed monster. After becoming friendly with some of the cuter guys in the house, I found myself desiring these men beyond my own control. I invited them to my room on frequent occasions to get a refreshing glimpse of one of the young, strapping men, and even to arouse myself secretly while they sat in the room. I especially took pleasure in spotting them in the weight room in bench press, where I could share the dirty secret with myself of having my genitals that close to one of the young boy's faces. I realized my problem when my desire for certain young men controlled my rationale, and I confided with the owner of the fraternity to kick out the fraternity brothers that didn't turn me on enough. I had shared homosexual relations with a few men of older age, of which this fraternity chair person was one of, so I had access to certain special benefits. In the end, everyone in the fraternity was expelled except for the youngest, freshest members of the house. All were under the age of 19, and still I confide with them under the guise of wanting the best for the fraternity. My true intentions, however, have extended to sharing sexual relations with 3 of the remaining 10 members (of which I nominated one for president), and granting special "favors" for certain young men. I fear that this obsession may be interfering with my judgement, and I also fear that I may be abnormal in my choice of lover. Please send me your recommendations and opinions on what I can do to continue living a truly christian life. I have been a devoute protestant with nothing but pure intentions all my life. Sincerely, Joe [name and email address edited out by Webmaster] |