whatever
Submitted by F.O.D. on March 25 2000 17:28:07
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I feel like talking. Stuff and all that. I'm not really upset, just, I dunno, want to talk or something. The other week I was talking with a pastor from church about the biblical teachings on homosexuality. He's a great guy, really, and ready to listen. But still didn't tell me what I wanted to hear. Don't you hate it when they do that? Talked about the reasons behind why it's man-and-woman. He said he sees it as mirroring Christ-and-church. Puts my head into a spin, I keep getting back to the position I first started with. I think what's really making me frustrated is a couple of lesser comments he made. Like, that A.I.D.S. is the consequence of homosexuality. Ridiculous. I was bringing up the same questions I raised in the thread below, that if God really is against homosexuality, it's because there are some objective destructive consequences of homosexual behaviour. So I asked him what those consequences might be. He replies, "well...there's AIDS." Funny thing, I always thought AIDS was caused by a virus spread by promiscuous sex. Not for just being gay. I'm peeved with my YF. He never writes. I don't understand. He's got a computer, he can send emails. He always means to, but never does. But when I call by phone he's always happy to chat and talks about different things going on in his life. So why doesn't he tell me more by mail? Is he just not used to writing mail? I shouldn't complain too much - my parents always tell me to write, but I hardly ever do. (they don't have email, see?) He's busy at the moment with some serious schoolwork, but you'd think he'd have time to say just two words to let me know he's OK. The bit I'm really concerned about is that his internet account isn't working properly, but he doesn't have enough maturity to deal with it. He's already 16, so I figure he should be grown up enough to handle his own business, and it disappoints me to think he may not be. I'm tempted to not phone him, if he's not going to write. But what if it is just technical internet problems he can't cope with? Or what if, he has best of intentions but just gets distracted or has too much else going on in his life? How would I feel if my parents cut me off just because I'm terrible at writing? I guess it puts things into perspective. I'm "family" for the boy. But maybe not "lover". I should keep in touch with him and not let his slackness alienate him from me. I just get so tired of waiting. Like they say, "whatever". F.O.D. |
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