Re: greetings, updates, and i outed myself....again...

hiya fod, its been a while, huh? about the whole legal thing, while i cannot say much, i am not merely ignoring the law for the sake of anarchy. i simply believe that this particular situation is one where a higher law prevails, the law of love. i think that my actions are right in god's eyes, but not in the eyes of the law. (like i said to someone not too long ago, jesus was killed for allegedly being a criminal...so i am in good company! hehe) but anyway, i am not doing anything ridiculous like running guns or drugs or junk like that. i am helping someone improve their situation, and this is what is illegal, just the fact that i am helping them, not the way that i am helping them. and about the drinking, i am kind of at peace with myself for a while. BTW, please FEEL FREE to string me up when i am an idiot. i am not a subtle person, so have no qualms about tellling me i am being an idiot.... i will still love ya! but the only problem i have with drinking is when i use it to escape my problems, when i get drunk every night to fall asleep, when it covers up my feelings with a pleasant buzz. i have no problem with wine now and then, or beer with dinner. it is when i go and get drunk for a couple of weeks that causes the problems. (i know i know, social drinking is a cover up, but i am being completely honest about this one. i do not feel that occasional glass of wine is the problem. it is the uncontrolled abuse that is the problem, and i have stopped that for a while. as a matter of fact, i bought a pint of beer a few days ago to drink with dinner, and it is still sitting in the fridge untouched...hooray for me!) and certainly do not hold anything against 5150 (i doubt you do anyway) because any trouble i get in, i get MYSELF in. 51 is a good friend, and we have some great times together. it is wonderful to be able to hang out with another BL and just be a little nuts sometimes. (after all, who wants to be *normal*? yuuuccchhhh....) but anyway, just wanted to say hi and thanks for your kind words. i wish i could get back here more often and be a part of all these cool discussions, but i just started a new job, and i leave the house about 6 am and dont get back often till 8:30 pm, so time is kinda short right now. although with all this work, i will finally be able to pay some bills.... the Lord has provided me with a good place to work, making somee decent money, and plenty of work to keep me out of trouble- all i do monday to friday is work and sleep! (i am not kidding either...hehe) well, i gotta run. got lots to catch up on. life is shaping up pretty well lately. the Lord is good... grace and peace scott