...that's my problem. I know what I should do, but when push comes to shove I ignore what I know and give in to temptation. I know that it is wrong, I know that's it's just instanteneos (spelled how???) superficial satisfaction and that I will soon come to regret it. That's why I'm so ashamed afterwards. I can't say that I didn't know, cause I knew fullwell, but chose to do it anyways. Then that same shame becomes the problem. I can't make up with God rightaway, because I don't want to be a hypocrite or a fraud. It's my stupid pride that stands in my way. Then it's time to admit that you were a spineless twit and just get on with life and try again. But hey, it's good friday today and I'm doing fine lately... God bless, zip |