You had a very deep posting. What you said is very true. I agree with a lot you said. I did not "Choose" these feelings either. But they are a part of me. And God is also a part of me. I understand your feelings of thinking God is playing a trick on you. One thing I like asking myself is: Am I supposed to follow my heart or my head. Because it's weird. Sometimes my heart says I love this person (in a lustful way) and my head says, FOLLOW GOD but other tiems my head says I Love this person and my heart says FOLLOW GOD! So it's really hard sometimes. Let me just encourage you that you are not alone. The Lord has blessed me by showing me this forum and I've met a lot of WONDERFUL people here that have shared in my struggles. My motto is found in Galatians: Carry each other's burdens. :-D God Bless you ASB! In His hands, Huck Finn |