my God is so big....

hiya all long time no drop in and post by me. sorry for my absence. just wanted to offer up some praise and thanksgiving. my life as usual has been full and fuller than ever, and the Lord just continues to bless and provide every small need that i have. He has provided me with an excellent job in just a couple of weeks, he has provided me with an excellent vehicle (my big and now officially very bad Ford truck) and plenty of time to meander my way several thousand miles to my new destination, and He has provided me with work while i was here to pay all my bills and travel expenses. but all that is immaterial (pardon the bad pun, unintended). He has given me peace... He has given me joy... He has given me the desire to walk with Him... He has given me the strength to walk with Him... He has given me a calm that reaches down to my soul and whispers in my ear that everything will be all right, that tells me that He is right there with me even when i doubt... though I wander with the wind, He gives me boys to be kind to, boys to befriend, boys to love...even if only for a couple of days... i love Him...i love them...i could not imagine life without either one... He has even given me some measure of peace about my *nasty* split with my girlfriend of 4 1/2 years, who i wanted and planned to spend the rest of my life with...although many nights i cry myself to sleep and many nights i miss her warmth...and many days i question my very essence and whether i am truly happier now... through the pain and the tears, He gives me the love i have lost, the love i no longer have to give...i miss her... but He loves me even though i hurt her and she me. He loves me when my dysfunctional self self-destructs for weeks at a time...and when my self-destruction takes down those around me. He loves me when He paints for me a rainbow in the sky, or a smile on the face of a boy on the street... He loves me when He sacrifices His son on the cross for MY sins... I love Him too.... Scott