Scott, My prayers are with you. May you know that to pour out your heart in complaint to God is quite okay - just read some of the Psalms. May you find the capacity to love yourself and others in the midst of your pain. The pain will always be with you in part, but may you find a way of looking to the future. As someone I know said, life is tough, there's no choice about that, but there's no choice about God either. Thanks for taking the trouble to email me the other day - that was kind. With Christian love, Jules |