Re: An Earler Post
Submitted by Rex Infinity on June 01 2000 20:01:44
In reply to An Earler Post submitted by Pendragon on June 01 2000 16:21:45
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"What you said tugs at my heartstrings more than you know. That you grew up and the hugging and cuddling did you harm hits me in the heart. I hug and cuddle my boys so much to hopefully let them know they are loved. I hope I dont harm them in any way." No, pendragon, no. The hugging and cuddling did not do me any harm at all. Frustrated me, yes. Harmed me, no. It is unlikely that my teacher knew I was sexually active, let alone homo-sexually active. So he probably didn't realise that his affections were stirring up within me erotic thoughts and feelings which I did not really know how to control. If I had not been homosexually active, I doubt his hugs and cuddles would have had the same effect on me. My regret is that all that hugging and cuddling only served to frustrate me. So in that respect, the hugs and cuddles didn't do me any good at all. And watching my teacher hug and cuddle the other boys, that was frustrating too. How I wanted to do the same thing! I had a little boyfriend at the time, and we hugged a lot and cuddled a lot. But that was just one form of affection. We knew of and practiced other forms, sexual ones. It could be said that I was confusing love and sex (indeed that has been suggested to me elsewhere). But I knew the difference even then between love and sex: love is when you cuddle with your clothes on, sex is when you cuddle with them off :) Was it my teacher's intention to stir up homosexual feelings in young boys? I doubt it. So if I was able to tell him all of this, would he now regret giving me all those hugs and cuddles? It's a difficult dilema to come to terms with, I guess. And I got no answer for it, no advice to give. On this one, I'm lost... |
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