Hi Pendragon, I was so saddened by your post I just had to say something. I cannot say that I truly understand your situation, however I too have suffered with depression, and my childhood had it's own source of dispare for me. My father was a very abusive person to me (mostly verbal abuse), and to my brothers as well. He was extreemly physically abusive twords my youngest brother....I remember laying in my bed at night, listening to him beat my brother with one of his own toys, and my brother just screaming! And there was nothing we could do, unless, of course, we wanted to be beaten up too. My father made me feel so low and so bad about myself, that my self-esteem was severly damaged. Anyway, I just want you to know that you are in my prayers, brother. I know what sadness and depresion is, and I know how damaging it can be. I also know that God, our TRUE father, has given us much to rejoice about. You see, He has adopted us into HIS family!!! He loves us that much!!! And, yes brother, He does love you THAT much...enough to die for you, just to bring you to His family as one of His very own children. I know that we have had to suffer much in our lives, but our Father God really wants to end our internal suffering and replace it with His peace! I am praying that you will find this peace in your own life. Love in Christ Jesus, Chris |