"When all is said and done, I'm still being beaten. It hurts just as much. It's just as unfair." In fact, it may well hurt even more. I vividly remember when I was 15 and my mother realized I was in love with another boy. She said, "You're in love with him." I thought "Yes, I sure am!" not realizing at that moment that I "shouldn't" be. But the next moment that was clarified forever. "It's horrible!" she then exclaimed. I couldn't understand why it should be, but with the "help" of other well-intentioned people, I soon found out. Now, I literally thank God each day for my life and for being who I am and being attracted to and loving who I do. It's a gift that I won't allow someone to take from me again, ever. No scripture quoting, no admonitions about what others think God wants or commands, none of these things can overcome what I've learned through experience. ---Ford |