Hi Everyone,
I just came across this message board tonight. This has been a very discouraging week for me. First off, I've been plagued with false rumors and accusations about being a child molester for the past 15 years. I thought there was something wrong with me until I got on the internet and found out about "Boylovers"

I've always had a desire to love boys younger than me. Love in the sense of an older brother or father. Not in the negative sense the world looks at it. There was never any interest in sex or molestation. The most physical I ever got with any boy was tickling them shirtless or on their feet. Never below the waistband. I thought it was "my calling" to befriend street boys. THe same way Dave Wilkerson or Father Flanigan did. Some of the boys have turned against my friendship and started spreading false rumor about me. THe police were never involved it was just people spreading rumors around my jobs and some groups that I was involved in. I got to know this one woman through my job about 2 years ago. I was upfront about the false rumors. She never thought anything negative about me or anything like that. We became really good friends.

I was planning on going camping with her son this weekend. She called me up the day before I was to pick up her son and told me her sister had been checking up on me resently and supposedly found a guy who I was to have molested over 10 years ago. The sister didn't go directly to the woman that I know. She went to their mother and the mother told the woman that I know. The mother made her promise not to let her son go camping with me this weekend. Before that happened, this woman trusted me with her son and allowed me to take him to movies or hikes or just drives to the airport to watch the planes take off. By the way the woman is 29, the son is 14 and I'm 33.

I thought there might be a future with this woman and her son. I had buried all my past hurts of false rumors about me deep inside along time ago. I really thought I had put the past behind me. Now, there's some guy, which I don't know who it is, out to continue to ruin my life. For all I know he could have been a bus student I had and suspended and this is the sick way of getting back at me. Or it could be a past member of a boys group that I had to descipline once seeking revenge. It's like trying to defend myself against ghosts from my past. I never abused or hurt any kid in my life. Why is this happening to me. Now I know what Jesus went through with his false accusations.

Thanks for taking the time to read this. I don't get to this message board this often that's why I included my e-mail address. Any e-mails of encouragement would be greatly appreciated. I would like to hear from anyone but especially those who may have gone through similar situations.
Thanks,
Paul