Heather,

I guess that the only way we can live our lives without talking about such a central matter, or at least the only way I can, is to carry on as best as possible, and try to find some boys to share affections with, and to keep most of it bottled up inside.

Prayer is an incredible help.

The wonderful grace of God, which beats me upside the head at least twice a day, is another thing that keeps me going.

The danger in keeping it bottled up is that if you put ANYTHING in a bottle, seal it and put pressure on it, it will explode. Unfortunately, this happens in my life more than I care to think about.

But hey, think about the lady caught in adultery brought before Jesus. "Then neither do I condemn you......" (paraphrase)

If I had to put it in one phrase, I would have to say that God's unconditional love, and allowing ourselves to accept that, is what keeps me in most of my right mind (at least as much of it as I have left :-) )

Good luck, and thank you for all the encouragement you have given me. May He work as wonderfully and visibly in your life as He has in mine.

Grace and peace,

PuppetMaster