Hey guys, I came across this site and have been reading the posts. I have been encouraged to read about others dealing with the same struggles as me. I am 29 years old and live in the southeast part of the U.S. I have struggled with an attraction to boys for as long as I can remember. It started by being attracted to my friends. As I grew older my attraction began to remain with those around that age. I guess my AOA would be like 8-13.

To make things even more complicated for me, I feel very strongly that God has called me to full-time student ministry, which I originally thought was dumb on His part. I have finally accepted His calling, and am active in the student ministry at my church, and plan to do online courses to finish my Biblcal Studies Degree, which I started at a local Bible college, but had to drop out because of financial reasons.

I have an amazing girlfriend, and we have talked about marriage, but I am really concerned that my attraction to boys will cause major complications with that. I do find myself attracted to her, but I think it's more her personality than anything physical.

I have several questions that I would love to hear your responses to
1. Were any of you sexually abused as children? (I was not, at least not that I know of).
2. Any of you that are married, how do you manage your relationships with your wife?
3. Do any of you have children, and if so, are there any temptations there? I desperately want my own, but I am afraid of what I have the potential to do.
4. Are any of you actively working in a ministry type environment with those with whom you struggle with an attraction to?

That should do for now, I'll be around for your responses and look forward to developing some Godly relationships with you guys so that we can encourage and strengthen each other.

Be Blessed,
nchristalone