You're not going to hell, Youth. You are a precious child of our loving Father, and God is watching over you. You will get through this.

Getting professional help is an option, if you can arrange it, but in any case I think the most important thing after those things is that your being gay and your being in love with someone who doesn't love you back are two very separate issues. The first is just the way God made you as part of The Plan. It's hard, in this world, but it is not sin or wrong. The second sucks, hard, but it's normal, and survivable.

Just keep talking and complaining and even screaming about it to whoever will listen, including God.

Love in Christ,
~CSL