This is a good topic for me. Whether I consider myself to be a homosexual, heterosexual, boylover, or asexual. I have never had sex with a boy or man. I have only had sex with women, and have not found it to be satisfying at all. I will not have sex with a boy, despite my extreme attraction, due to obvious reasons (laws). So, my option is to either have sex with men or no sex at all. Thus far I have chosen to have no sex. The difference in this situation is that i met my YF as a boy and now he has turned into a man. In fact, I don't even know if i am just lusting after his youthful boyishness from before, considering I havent seen him in more than 6 months. I even consider what would happen if he stayed with me, and I didnt find him to be an attraction anymore, both physically and mentally. My AOA is 12-16, where boys are in such an important developmental period of their life, both physically and mentally. This is what makes life difficult, so many things to process. Thanks for helping!