Youth?? you said, in a longer post a few days ago ("Lungs like Gallows")

“I'm really depressed, and I -do- feel suicidal sometimes, but, I just don't know who to tell, and im so scared all the time”

I answered (when I saw this a few days later)

“Youth, if you can stand to stay at the computer while you're recovering, would you consider chatting with me on yahoo (your msn will also talk to my yahoo if you have no yahoo yourself)? If you will email me at one of my sleeper-emails, qnaap(at)hotmail dot com, I will give you the address. I'm friendly, never invasive, always protective of your privacy, and sometimes even kinda fun :P hehe ... up 2 you. Let me know here that you mailed me because I seldom look at that address unless I am expecting something.”

The webmasters were worried this might look like a set-up for sex with a younger person, so they took it off and discussed it among each other and with me. They then reinstated it with this comment:

[We have discussed the post and reinstated it, thank you for understanding. Feel free to point it out in a higher level post if you want to be sure it will be seen]

Because of that worry, though, I want to add that I am faithful to my partner and never even consider doing anything sexual with anyone else. All I have to offer is a whole lot of experience about how to live with yourself and have a good life as a person who is attracted to mostly younger members of his own sex, how to stay out of trouble, how to (eventually) feel good about yourself. A lot of the bad feelings just come from isolation, and a live conversation with someone who understands goes a long way towards making some good feelings happen.

A lot of younger people wouldn’t feel comfortable talking to an older person in that way, but we boylovers have it easier than most when it comes to friendly relations with other generations. Also, when we all understand that each of us probably isn’t attracted to older guys, then there’s no confusion that could lead to inappropriate attempts at getting sexual. So it can go very well.

Really it would be ideal if all of us here at cblf could talk to you (and each other), but I’m sure you understand that there are various legitimate concerns about that sort of thing, and by the grace of our Lord I happen to be better set up for it than most people.