I'd like to ask you why you find it more difficult?

For the reasons you mention and also because boys eventually grow up. So although I may still love them, the sexual attraction is always sure to fade. True that sexual attraction may also eventually lessen with women, but not to the same degree. The idea of having sex with men I knew and was attracted to as boys is rather repulsive to me.

If I were to add your belief that sexing a boy would MOST LIKELY cause him harm I'd be very down on myself.

I don't know why. If you don't have sex with boys you have nothing to be down on yourself for.

Lastly I don't thik it is dangerous to beleive that you could have a healthy sexual relationship with a boy. I actually think we need to believe it. Otherwise you will see yourself as a mosnter who's trying to convince himself that he's not.

Monsters are not monsters because of anything they think or feel or desire. They are monsters because of the things they do.

Dakota