I don't want to sound harsh but there is much more to life than a sexual or romantic attractions. In this world you will never receive every thing you want and get everything your own way. God does not owe you or anyone an explanation as to why He does or allows or made anything. It is your choice to either walk with the Lord or walk away from Him. This life is so short and in comparison is nothing compared to eternity. The choices you make while on this earth are important. There are so many hurting people in so many different ways. Everyone in this world can ask why me in some respect to their lives. We live in a fallen world and everyone in this word has hurt in some part of their life. You can choose to become bitter and hateful or you can choose to life your life here the best that you can and accept it for what it is and not for what is not. The Lord loves you and has a plan for your life we are to walk by faith and not by sight. We are not to live by our own understanding but to trust in the Lord even when we do not see the end result for the work he is doing in our lives. It is like a child whose father tells him no, the child does not understand and can't he has no clue and is not old enough to understand of course the child hates being told no but it was for his own good. Our God is a good Father and we are not able to understand it all now and yes we even hate being told no. You will have many more problems in life this will not be last one. You can live for God or yourself that is your choice but there are people who care and we are all praying for you. By the way I am not being judgmental I have had a tough life and I know that things really suck. Just hang in there there are good times in life also.

God Bless and I will be praying for you!

With love in Christ

Blaze