I can try to address part of your post, the blind trust part. Trust in God is like any other kind of trust. It doesn't come easily or quickly. As it is with trusting other people, you learn to trust them more as they prove themselves to be trustworthy. I have learned to trust God over the years, not merely because the Bible tells us to, but because He has proven himself TO ME to be trustworthy. As I've gone thru life, I've had many occasions I needed God, as has everyone. When I put my trust in Him, He has always brought me thru whatever it was. Not always as I would have liked, and not always very comfortably, but He HAS brought me thru it. Sometimes I trusted Him out of faith. Many times I trusted Him simply because I had no other choice. There was just nowhere else to turn. The more God came thru for me, the easier it was to trust Him the next time.

I don't want to give you the impression that I'm some super Christian that always finds it easy to leave everything in God's hands. I'm not. It still can be hard because I still want to do things my way and find my own solutions. But when things get hard or funky, I don't get as stressed as I used to. I think back on all the times He has been faithful in taking care of me, and I figure what the heck, He's always come thru before, no reason to think He won't now. Easy? No. But is does get less difficult and you do get more of a peace about it. That's part of where God is trying to get us all, becoming more and more trustful of Him.

I'm still sad sometimes and still lonely sometimes, and life can still have it's down sides. Hard times still come. But when they do, I reflect on all He has done for me, how f----d up my life would have turned out without Him. And I say to myself and to Him that whatever I have to deal with, whether it be from Him or simply because of life, it's ok.

Dakota