my own being an example, and I have a number of friends who have found acceptance in churches despite their being peodphiles. A Christian organisation that specifically exists to serve us is

http://www.brokenyoke.org/

headed by a guy who did jail time for an offence with a boy. So the prospect is not all black; worth considering - as I can only repeat there is ENORMOUS value in being able to share honestly what you are struggling with.

Beyond that - it's worth starting to exchange emails with people here; check out the security advice about IP addresses (most email providers include your IP address in the header): see the discussion here

http://www.glgarden.org/safemail/

which also lists free webmail hosts that offer this degree of anonymity.

But overall - WELCOME TO THE BOARD - you are among friends here, and I hope that you find it to be as much a home for you as it has become for me.