Hypothetically Speaking
Submitted by Youth?? on 2009-07-1 05:01:24, Wednesday
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Suppose a man did have feelings for boys/teens? I'm just saying, would anyone here expect him to talk about it? I just have to wonder. What -if- he did? Is he just supposed to throw his hands and give in for the millionth time in his life? No money, no job, no job history, and he's stuck in whatever city God dumped him in. A crumbling family, and he has feelings for other men he can't control. So supposing he lives through all this crap - and then - and then boyloving? Who wouldn't lie to themselves day in - and day out, trying to convince himself it's not true, it can't be real. 'Not another bag of shit in my life' the man would say. No way. Only to falter to it's seductive and addictive sexual life-style that trumps everyone it comes in contact with. And what if he believed in God? And through this all - manages to get even ONE prayer out there to God. One prayer being a whole lot for someone going through so much, with so much doubt and so little faith. So little motivation. Enough, you know? Wouldn't God realize that by now, if the man hadn't grown stronger through the mist - maybe he just got lost and eaten in it. But even prayer, one simple prayer can't be answered. 'God, a job please, so that I can't GO somewhere, and live like everyone else'. But nothing. He hopes, and prays again, that he didn't waste his breath. But nothing. And nothing can be done to earn this prayer so the man believed for so long, but... maybe God just doesn't care. Or maybe the man even thinks that God isn't real anymore. Not that the evidence isn't there. Not that it doesn't make sense to him, but because he's been trying to do things, looking back, making sure he doesn't screw up. Doubting himself. What if the man does what HE wants? I mean, that has to matter at some point, right? Or wrong? All I know is, is that this man has been through a lot, and no amount of 'James Chapter 1' or 'John 3:16' will shape this man's heart that has been broken by one mess. And another. And another. I'd say pray for this man, but......... |
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