thanks Rainboy, and all who've been so nice to me. I'm really glad I'm here too. For the first time ever I feel can really say what's on my mind without having to worry about being persecuted/rejected. It's been a sort of cleansing experience, cause I'm not brooding all the time anymore, keeping all my 'dark thoughts' to myself. And it's always nice to hear 'hey, I went through the same thing...'. We're an emotional, sensitive bunch, aren't we?