I don't realate to being so infactuated with a boy and NOT being sexually attracted to him.

For me it's both.

I'm also married.

I think a BL can be married AND love boys or a boy at the same time. As long as the relationship with the boy is purely platonic I don't think it contradicts anything in our marriage.

It's possible to make appropriate room for a boy in a man's life... it's all about keeping a balance and making sure you fill your responsibilities to your family. The fact that he fills your heart is not a bad thing in my mind if you keep your actions in balance.

My yf motivates me to love my family well. I want to be a good role model for him. I often say to myself... treat them the way you would treat him if it were him asking you.

Blessings
Cat.