Hfj, this could be read as a suicide note. If it is, hold off, and talk to the guys at Lifeline. (see link)

Your very bipolar mood swings about your YF are not just about having a YF or being a BL. If you are suffering, there are good solutions that don't involve drastic measures. Hang on for them, I know it isn't easy in the BL situation, but things can be worked out.

• ( http link ) Lifeline.
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