Hey ccc,

Most guys on here have heard me talk about my "other side of the coin" so much that I won't repeat it all in over much detail here (but feel free to ask questions).

In a nutshell... no attraction to adults of either gender, got married young to a woman hoping to get "healed" of my BL. Didn't work. Managed to function sexually with my wife by using fantasy to achieve orgasm and because I do actually love her (despite no physical attraction).

In recent years have been to counselling to try and get attracted to women and found it nothing but confusing and deeply distressing.

Now in my 40's with a YF growing out of my usual AOA I'm finding myself partly attracted to older guys... but it's not a full or stable attraction (I'm only attracted to some bits of them some of the time) so I go from thinking some guy is mildly attractive to very ugly and I don't like it. Boys, as ever, continue to be my sunshine. For the record I don't recomend trying to force change on your sexuality.... it was a terrible experience for me.

My plan is to stay with my wife and be a faithful husband as much as I'm able. Which means I won't go off with anyone else but we may not have a brilliant sex life together.

Blessings
Cat.