Welcome to cblf Orphan. I hope you stick around and get alot out of participating here as I have. I also hope you took no offense that I edited your post (I am one of the mods here) and will keep posting anyway, I think I explained well already why I made the edit.

It is a challenge for many BLs who are Christians to reconcile it with a faith where many people say homosexuality is a sin. It is possible and most of the people here have done that. People come to many specific conclusions during that process, mostly I mean some people will learn to accept themselves and homosexuality is a sin and some will not. I assume that is why you have problems with being a Christian BL.

I recommend making posts here about some of the struggles you are having. Engaging people here in issues you struggle with can help you figure things out. When you make posts just be careful not to give out personal information, we won't need that kind of information to give our opinions on things and it won't help you stay anonymous.