So, for the most part things have been looking up for me. I managed to find some work after about two years of doing nothing. For the past six months or so I've given up fighting my attractions for other males and instead, embrace them. (more or so) With that said, it's mostly other guys my age I find attractive. Then sudden attractions for younger teens (12 years plus) hits me like a dump truck. Honestly it's kind of dazing wondering where this came from. (again) I thought I was past this. I like males plain and simple. That's the easy part to say. The part where I get to say im attracted to twelve year old boys, not so much. And what gets me the most is I know where is some creepy fat guy out there with his van, offering candy to children makng a mockery of what I'm about. It's uttertly painful seeing a boy stretch with his arms up exposing his soft belly from underneath his shirt. Just out of no where, it's like I'm 12 again taking a Shower after gym class gorging over the boys my age. Simple math can tell you why I'm having a problem with this.