Thank you all for the replys Im not ready to be out to my church but I was kind of found out by someone very close to me and I am a little scared by mostly I am just tired of living a lie. I think this is a big part of the conflict and guilt that I carry with me. After being here this week and listening and reading post by other BL I decided to take off early today and do a mini vaction this weekend and just try to find myself and decide where to go from here. Again I can't express what an encouragement you guys are to me right now.

kjun