I myself am a recovering alcoholic and I can definatly relate to what you have said. It isn't easy to quit drinking and have to face the world sober. I don't know how many times I have quit and then tried and failed at life, and so gone back out to drink some more and started the whole cycle over again. It does take a faith in God to finally put the plug in the jug and begin to live. However, that faith doesn't have to be very big at all, in only needs to be sincere. It sounds like your faith is very sincere. Welcome to CBLF and please keep coming back. One day at a time, brother!