I've made posts about my feelings about my last yf. After getting constantly discouraged by all the negativity here I've come to a decision.

I am going to wait for him and contact him and hope something happens. We had a close relationship by any standards, normal hetero shit or not, and I know it will mean something to him. Yes he will change and so will I but not my loyalty and devotion, nor my caring and love for him, and hopefully he will remember how I made him feel loved and cared for.

I don't want to live in a safe little box forever. That's not living to me. Sometimes you have to take risks. He is worth it. More than anything in my life.

I would like some advice or genuine encouragements from you guys on my journey.

Thank you all.