I HATE THIS WORLD!!! It's full of hate(ironic uh?), hypocrisy, judgment(not from God), People dictating to me what I should believe and even if I disagree they continue to try and force feed me their doctrines, but the worst thing is not being able to fully experience the fruits of my sexuality as of yet. The torture of watching little girls who are so sexy and some who would be interested in me but me not being able to act upon any of my desires because I have yet to fully denounce the rulers of this world and accept whatever price I would have to pay for my sexual explorations.

Mark 11:24 Therefore I tell you, whatever you ask for in prayer, believe that you have received it, and it will be yours. I am asking in Jesus Name to live out my sexuality without consequence and if there be consequence than give me the strength and endurance to handle it and see me through to the end. This world is no longer worth living for so I will live for you and live the life you gave me to the fullest. Just give me the strength and wisdom I need to prosper in your way.

So, I watch the news and keep my eyes open to what's going on around me looking for signs of the end. At least then I will know whether I was right or wrong with no doubts at all. I believe my sexuality(which I no longer label) is right for me. I must learn to turn to my suffering into a movement but am too lazy to put forth the work it would take to begin living my life to the full. I am so burdened down with the worlds crap that I have little to no strength to fight for what I believe in but will always fight for what others believe I should believe in.

Weeping may endure through the night but joy comes with the morning.

Jesus is my bright morning star.

I need to put much effort towards living my life the way God designed it to be and work as unto him and continue to focus on the Kingdom.

What does the Kingdom of God looks like(not the Kingdom of Heaven)? In the Bible it makes references to both and the only way to know you are living in the Kingdom of God is to know what to expect. The fruits of the spirit I guess is the main signs of Kingdom living.

Well enough of my rambling for now, thanks for reading.