I didn't include details because it's basic crap. You know, pray, read the bible, that same old crap. Get mental help, which isn't a bad idea, but with what money?

And truly, I don't want to join the armed forces.
And truly, I don't want to stay here and deal with this crap forever, but it's a shame that right now my only visible way to get out of a entire past of regrets and shame, is to do something I truly don't want to do.
Not to mention thats 25 pounds away. To begin with.