I know exactly what you mean, although I don't think I have it as badly as you do. Ever since I was branded as a sex offender, I have been extreemly stand-offish with any young boys, which just breaks my heart. When I go to church it is especially difficult because there are some boys there who are so beautiful and who I would so love to know, but I just keep myself away because of the whole sex offender list and all of that. I have never layed hands on a child in a sexual way, my offense was having nude pictures of minors, but people don't care and I know only too well that they don't easily forget, either. So I stay away from the boys and try to pretend they don't even exist when I'm at church, but my heart just aches to love them like I used to love my YF many years ago.

Life can be so difficult for people like us and there are so few who even care to try to understand. However, we CAN be here for one another, so there is at least that kind of hope for us. I think William is right, the best cure...the miracle cure....would be to have a young friend. But, as in my case, that particular cure might not be possible. I hope it is possible for you.