Cant bare this anymore - these swings high ,very high, then very low, then lower, then even lower. Its all too much for me now.

I love my yf so very much but i know thngs will never be the way i would like then to be, there too many obstacles .. age difference included , not to mention what his mom thinks of me.
When he is with me i feel awesome, i pray to the Lord that things will be good, however if anyone suffers it always happens to be me, even though my intentions are honest etc i always end up by getting f****ed.

I am fed up with everything, everyone,everywhere... Lord where are you ?
I am NOT ASHAMED to say my yf is in my heart , very deeply , and he always will be.

as it says in the bible ..... "without love you are nothing"

if this is true ... i am nothing !

but they also say ... "its better to have loved and lost , than never to have loved at all" ... at least i can say i tried.

Goodbye


PS : C ILY