My first post on here was last year - i was very confused - i needed advice. This was my very first experience in my life of getting emotionally very close to a young boy.
This was my post
http://cblf.org/messages/60362.htm

the response (42 posts !) was mixed in many ways, thus making even more unsure which way to turn but one response by Robert-I , caught my eye and made me really think.

"You could either be heading for becoming a favourite unofficial uncle who's always remembered as one of the highlights of this boy's growing up, or to falling under deep suspicion and suddenly finding that the boy's open arms are receding into the parental shadows, never to be seen again"

so whats happened since ? then and now ?

Then : i was confused in my mind and my heart Now: i am secure in my mind
Then: i didnt know if he loved me Now: i know he loves me
Then: he didnt know how i felt about him Now: he knows i love him
Then: i didnt have the trust of his mom Now: i do have her trust

only yesterday i heard him tell someone that i was his best friend.
only today in church he rested his head on my shoulder and wrapped both his arms around my neck for 10 minutes.- it was a moment of pure love shown by him on his own accord. How our friendship has grown in the last 5 months, when he was younger he went through a difficult period of his life , and i have been there for him , i listen to him, i treasure his presence, and he treasures mine in equal measures - our relationship is pure and holy in every way - and believe me it feels wonderful.

we both pray for each other and we both thank our loving father for bringing us together. I hope that he will want me in his life for many years to come - my instinct tells me he will want that.

Where do we go from here ? i dont really know , but what i do know, is that God is preparing something wonderful. I know i am so blessed, and i know my YF is a very special boy, and the more time i spend with him the more special he becomes.
So infact we have given each other our hearts ....

..... the most precious gift of all !