At your age my YFs - a variety of boys, I was never blessed with one as close as you seem to be - tended to be 14. Then when I went to university I found I was developing similar relationships with students a year younger than me, though possibly the lack of opportunity to do otherwise might have helped. But after university I returned to younger boys; however a group of 14 year olds arrived in my life and have never left - they are now 29!

My point is that it's worth making the effort to try and relate to the top end of your Age of Attraction range (i.e. the range of ages of boys that are attractive to you) whenever you can, rather than drift into relationship with younger ones. In my experience the effect of this is to help raise your AoA until it is at least legal - a great improvement - even if not a complete solution.

As far as 'Why', I tend to adopt the handicap approach to the issue i.e. we are in the same boat for the same reason that other people are blind or deaf or wheel chair users. However there are others on this board who don't agree!

Incidentally Blackstone's comment about security is well made; I should have been a little more hesitant about milking you for information, and I apologise.