My internet died for about 2 weeks now, so I couldn't post this earlier:
I can't write much right now, I'm at a library comp. and i gotta go somewhere in a few mins. I just couldn't contain myself any longer and had to tell someone.

I texted my YF about a week ago, just saying 'hi' and whatnot. To my surprise he actually replied (actually it turns out he hadn't been receiving my earlier texts...the got lost out there somewhere).

We ended up having a very long and awesome (for me it was!) conversation about everything we haven't talked about in 3-4 years. So I eventually worked up the nerve to ask him about his step-dad molesting him and all that, and it opened a door to 'feelings', and all that.

So I figured if I didn't tell him now it would prob. be never. And I told him. in less explicit terms, but I did. I said that all that time I thought I was helping him with his life, he was actually helping ME, and that in the process he healed a bunch of old wounds I would've never done by myself.

He was actually really nice about it. Turns out he had no idea, so he was kinda surprised, but i don't think i freaked him out cause we kept talking for a while after that, and he was really cool about it. He said "thank you soo very much!!" about our friendship (!!!!).

So I've been kinda happy for the last few days :)