Every single day for the past few months and almost every single day for the past couple of years I've missed my yf. It will be several more years before it's possible for me to see him again (very possible). Meanwhile though it just feels so horrible and I'm so frustrated that I can't see him, be with him, be there for him. I keep thinking why does this have to happen to me, why did the world do this to me, etc. It also makes me very depressed at times. If I can get through the next few years things will likely get much better. Unfortunately I've always been the impatient type and I'm hoping someone will tell me something here that will help me cope with the next little while.