I really have this compelling desire to FIT either here or there... but the reality is that I don't.

I want things to be neat and they are not.

I find it hard when attractions take me by surprise.

I know I like boys and that is certainly my primary orientation.... but I have to admit that other attractors will surface inconsistently and unexpectedly on a none-to-irregular basis. So every now and then I'll see this attractive 11 yo girl... or a 20 something guy... or a 3 year old (/shudders)... some of the attractions are distressing to me.... I don't want to be THAT kind of guy. But life is what it is.

I take comfort in the idea that just because I find a person sexually attractive in some way does not mean I want to have sex with them... or that I would even if I could. So what if you're attracted?... it doesn't mean anything other than that people are beautiful.

Blessings
Cat.