I have come to believe that God has a plan for everybody who is willing to discard his or her ego and embrace the love and knowledge that is His will.

I was resistant, because I did not want to use God as a crutch and rely on something that did not physically exist before my very eyes. But I realize that is not how a relationship with God works. I give myself over, and instead of being bound with chains, I am free to be who I am without the drugs, weed, self-loathing, resentments, none of that shit holding me back any longer. Sure, I will stumble, I will feel resentments, and I will be wrong at times, but that is a part of His plan, as well.

I was dealt a horrid hand of cards, but now I have a new way to play them. And suddenly I realize that my cards really are nothing I can't handle with God in my life.

I know, this post is filled with cliche, but sometimes there is truth in cliche (sometimes, not always).