been a long time since i've really connected with a boy. really wish i could find a boy that really needed me and fill up my life again. most of the time im ok but there are some days i get really lonely and realise that life is flying by and im doing absolutely nothing meaningful. for example i just read something that was from september and it seemed like i read it just yesterday. that was over 3 months ago! is my life so empty that something from that far back can seem like from yesterday? insanity! i'll old and decrepid in no time.

i have met MANY boys both in RL and online yet i dont really connect with any of them. life is getting so pointless. ive been stuck in this rut for so long now...at least the last time this happened it was because i was too scared to be with any kids thinking people would figure out im a pedo. i know there are boys out there that would fit with my personality really well and we'd have an amazing relationship for years but where the f are you?