I mean, we have excellent intentions and probably most of us are good at carrying them out when it comes to our involvement with a young boy. But that sexual attraction is always there, and we always have to deal with it. When I had a close relationship with my YF, it bothered me to no end. I loved him and knew for a fact that I would never, ever do anything sexual with him because I had decided right from the beginning that this was the right thing to do. And I was always faithful about that, but the very fact that I had sexual feelings for him could often be just terrible.

I'll tell you what, in spite of what most people think about us, we are some of the strongest people on the earth. We have to be to be able to put up with the kind of internal and external pressures that we do without going completely mad.