This is exactly what has happened to me. Eventually my YF left my life and created a big hole that I have not been able to fill. And the way I saw it (and who knows, in time I could be wrong...) I might never have another YF again. So I became terribly depressed for a long time. But I also kept working at other areas in my life, like music and being involved with the church. I joined the worship team at church and have been an active member of that group for nine years now. It has become one of the best things I have ever done in my life, and has had...up until just recently, nothing to do with boys. Now I am currently working on the most exciting music project of my life, and it is going to be so exciting. I would still love to have a YF in my life, but I no longer feel that this is the one and only thing that can make me happy or feel fulfilled. Thank you for what you wrote, Blackstone. You are absolutely right and I can definately relate to it.