That's ok, just don't let your future be a mirror of your past. There are many people who overcame a disastrous life and went on to live the life God actually intended for them. I hear stories like this all the time at my church small group, not to mention the fact that my own story is similar.

You might be right that you aren't someone anyone would want to look up to right now but unless you are reading this from your death bed, I don't see any reason you couldn't become someone others would look up to.