Well, God works in mysterious ways, and this situation is no less a mystery. I finally ended my friendship with my YF's older brother (he was the person that introduced us.) It has been a long time coming, but our friendship was strained from the start, and I just didn't want to deal with it anymore. I don't know what is going to happen with my YF, he is 14, so he may be able to socialize with me despite me not being friends with his brother, but only time will tell. I have spent time with him alone, and his parents were okay with it. It is a blessing in disguise because should he continue to communicate with me, I will know I mean something to him. If not, than I can use the time to recover emotionally. I needed some movement in this area of my life, and God has helped give me a direction. I prayed for countless hours for resolution, and I think I may have my answer. While I hope that my YF wants to continue our friendship, he will not be devastated by the loss should he be unable.

While this does little to fill the emotional void of not having a significant other, it is a minor victory in a big part of my life. I can only hope with the grace of God that something good comes from this stirring of the pot. I have a renewed sense of spirituality and hope blooming from what would normally be an upsetting situation. If my YF becomes a part of my past, I will be free to focus my attention on someone else, hopefully the right someone. If my YF stays a part of my life, I will no longer have to think about where I stand in his eyes because our mere friendship will tell all.